28 Feb 2023

the day to be remembered.

Forever Mom

Mom just passed away due to blood infection. probably from the stray cats that she fed everyday. 

The Lesson i learned is to treeasure every minute with your loved one while you are still alive.

Trauma and shocked is the phrase to picture my condition right now

I have to press forward. Now its the time to step up and make my Mom proud in another life.

Dad will be strong and i belief we are going to be fine.

 

It just that i lost someone very important in my life.

Dont worry Ma. when i am die.. we will all be together again in one cemetery. my wife, me and dad. we will all be together.

 

till next life. 

 

Love, Your Son.

MONEY

Money is the most important thing in this world right now.
because without it we are suffering.

thats how the world has become these day.

2014, has been a roller coaster to me.

September 2014,

Australia, Sydney

finally after 9 years i was back to the city that i was grown and learnt a lot from.
but the thing is i had to face and pay for the price.

my business is chaotic. debt here and there. i try to collect and survive..luckily i am still here.

what i learn from my trip this time

I met one of the most paranormal/psychic that prophesying very accurately. her name is jessica and she is taiwanesse.

but i am having a hard time and mind if what she said will become true in my future.yet, i believe that she is willing to help me n my family. cause i still got some time to change my fate.

i believe if we are good to people..we will be blessed..

my resolution n plan is now for me to look for a new job.
because i cant afford to waste any more time.

i hope that everything eventually will be okay at the end.

my concern now is to help my sister.

 or else we will all be suffered in da future.

2014

I would like to recap 2013 before i start writing about 2014

2013 had been a good year, although i had a surgery of my kidney stone around September
but hey i am fine now..
so what i learnt, drink water a lot no matter what situation u are in.
busy is no excuses. so please hyrdate ur ass before u regret shits later

luckily i had insurance covered my ass. so i didnt spent too much greeny for the hospital

i have been married yes, and doing okay.

i am not socialize that much since the more grown i am. the more i can see people are all in disguised and cannot be trusted.

so what is my tips to avoid such people:

1. just talk whatever u need to. and cut it short. just make it to the point. if they running their mouth just shut their ass and walk away.

2. there is no way to make all people agree with what you thinking. some people will hate you/ like you
so what you can do is just to accept that eventually whatever happens surround you. you is always gonna be yourself is the most important part. be true to yourself and fuck the opinions about you

3. keep everything yourself, really the more you show the more people will using ur ass to their benefits.
so just laying low, be happy and grateful for whatever happens is the best.


so what i am going to do in 2014,

keep rolling like i always have.

the world evolves and so do i.

really, whoever read this.. trust ur gut, that look out for urself. cause u urself is ur future. and no one will help you. dont expect that no more.

Future Reminder

Don't Forget to always stay away from, drugs, alcohol, hooker and gambling.

if you avoid those three you will be just doing fine in the future.

I personally have addiction since i was a little because of my passion for football. I was watching it since i was a child with my beloved daddy.

and till now i am still having a bad luck in sport matches.

I will quit and i mean it this time.

I have someone foresee my future and yet because of my stubbornness. As a result i have lost some quite amount of money from the day i started it

This is reminder for my generation to come.

please don't be such a dumb ass.

dont regret something that you can get it back already.

lets move on.

turn on the new page.

Freak Fuckin Show

I never post anything more about my love life ever since .

but here i am today writing these off to break the spell.

To Gel, The reason i am not staying in ur house because i wanna finish my blog and writing since i have a lot in mind to put in words.

things happened rapidly as a result i am expecting that u will understand the better of me as a person and ur future one.. if not than we r not meant to be together

As for my beloved readers, so many things that is bizarre to be even expressed that i am trying to write these special edition with such title as above.

6th of August i finally realized that so many pathetic or creature that even not worth mentioning but i will tell the story to y'all figure out.

I met this so called fortuneteller aka angels of death i am suppose to say.

since he talked and boasted too much about himself that i can figure him out that easily,

firstable let me explain religion is Buddhism. and i only obey and belief Siddharta Gautama or The Enlightened one. Siddharta had been reincarnated several times before reach the enlightenment

Meditation is the key to it

okay now, because of the evolution/revolution so many perception had been made up by human being itself so there is other giddy god, that promises to make people live become better nor suffer.

So the one i met is like having a giddy god he called to follow his ass all da time. and by doing that he help human being to reach their expectation without asking for money etc

he got upset when i din give a lot of attention since from start he mumbled a story about his since i myself don't really impressed to one of a kind show.

he made several mistakes that nobody in Gel's family realize that he is so con.

let me point out one by one before u guys judge me:.

1, he talk about others patient about their problems to us which is prohibited if according to the secrecy. so that means that this guy really likes to talk since he himself doesn't have any shit to do instead.

2. God never has an emotion toward others or even think about making harm n making people suffered. he himself said he will do for his own pleasure if he was pissed. which i think is a lame. kindness is buddha religion and for his statement below i think he is devilish one.

3. he being hypocrite for telling others to be patient and control gels brother anger..since himself can't control his..so what makes him different from us

4. he is trying to put a The Master show in front of me trying to impress me like Limbad did in the reality show. which is kinda childish and pathetic. i wasn't buying those shit. and by the way oh i don't give a fuck

5. for u to called me being lucky to be born in a good family just because i was lucky is just a cheap statement from another jealousy person. for u calling me being a sadistic and mean person is 100% to u aye aye. i prove u shit. what matters is my family opinion about me.

why would i forgive person for just wanting to take advantage of me? there is always cause n effect. when i am not being able to used.. nor friend would call me justo to say hi..so does that make me making an asshole and being a selfish person?… it just me being a smart person for not giving anymore hope.

as a result, i am happy for me being me, rather to be sucked in by bad people.

oh if u are so good why don't u just focus on doing and helping gel's family then? does it make sense that ur giddy god doesn't want to help because of personal reason? din Buddha said that always forgive ur enemy. i figure that u have nothing to show so u made up some excuses.

oh n to be honest i never want to test you or try to make u angry. u r just being sensitive and putting an ultimatun to make me suffer with ur arrogance saying is just a lil too much isn't it?.

so what did i learn from this experience. people who talk to much usually is no good.,not real, and desperate to make some living.

6, when u say Saibaba is a genuine person that makes u even more hoax, cause discovery by BBC broadcast is never lie. the closest thing they investigate that no flaws is Palden Dorje in Nepal that meditate without eating and driking for 12 months

lastly 7, by u showing ur anger is making me so sure that u r no genuine. cause i can figure ur ass out..by being figured i as a human will be angry as well by my competitor..how simple is that,

truth to be told, i am sick and tired for those people who kept seeing and finding a solution with these kind of person/method. why would u honor someone who drink, eat, feel the same in this earth. how desperate people are.

isn't it not enough to commit urself fully to Enlightened one? i hope Gel, someday if u r reading this u will know how simple as i want it to be. i just want us to have a simple minded with one goal is all.

i do hope a lot to u cause since i care to u alone instead of anything else. that u will understand me better each day. cause its breaking my heart to see a messy life in ur family which is really bothers me..

all i can promise is to take you alone to my family and to have a simple life without an interruption from others

i do hope u won't seek such freak show anymore.

if ur family depended on them and truly trusted those giddy god..so let it be.

but if u want to be with me truly like i do now. i hope u will listen to what i am saying. not with a force. but with sincerity i wish u can truly see the real me instead of what he said.

one day u will be reading this too, and if u r not in the same page as me so u can let me know so i can move on

i can't talk to u in the real time because of u r always being so negative and harsh. that is why i am putting these on words to let u know that it bothers me to see such kind of messy n fucked up situation. and u have been very bad to me by hitting me and showing some attitude which i hated the most.

so no rush, its okay if u r about to give up cause i can't force u to agree with me. but i do have my principle of life and no one can take it from me.

he may influenced one to 100 people. but he surely won't have my approval for being the enlightened one. he is just a commoner shit human being

my life has nothing to do with it. and i don't want anything have to do with it. so mark my words, i will never have any interest for those kind of shit anymore. freak fuckin show.

Gel= can u do that with me as well? cause before we marry as one…i need to know whether i can trust u fully a hundred percent.

i may be a very hard guy to understand but surely i am not a mean and bad person which is lookin to harm people to gain my satisfaction and personal benefits

remember that.

My Life has been a roller coaster. and this has to stop today with so many con artist and fucked up people around. its inhumanely sick and a sin

are you with me?

and p.s : i dig that u are trying to survive by selling ur B.S, but next time put it on youtube so u can make it Rich.

p.s: dad and mum i am grateful for the life u guys have given me compared to others i finally understood. that we are completely a unit as on

Sarange Appa, Omma..

Oh yea one more thing, i feel disappointed with your family member that day, cause when i looked around when he talked trash nobody even dare to give an opinion back. everyone is bowing down and look down as if God is speaking. Well fuck that, i have had enough the character is told by the way interpreted. i have formed my opinion about ur family. and it din belong to my world and i don't dig ur world and i won't.

so never expect me to listen anymore devilish talk and opinion. i don't wanna have anything to do with it anymore.

My heart don't lie that certain things that u done in this world is showing a pathetic human being people are. people who doesn't believe in themselves seek those

As a result, i dont respect y'all anymore.

2012 is the Gangnam Style Year

Psy will beat Bieber in a year in youtube sensation. that for sure

another thing i would like to write is that i against the Muslim way of killing animals to celebrate their Allah.

Why would u feed them and then kill the harmless cow, goat because human are the coward creatures ever created by God.

because they don't fight back and bite back.

what would happened if Tiger only the source for you to eat or Lion?

i would say human will hopeless.

I am sympathetic toward those animal who sold in public and to be tide and to be killed and to be eaten by human beings.

My Religion thought me otherwise and i aint hypocrite. i eat meat. but at least i don't enjoy killin em in public.

that is just sick.

I Hope those who heartless will die and get sick by disease or even cancer by eating those animals

Peace and i am still here.

Assange Wikileaks

When it comes to speak up ur mind whenever u think its right for what u believe in, i will always be in the pro side of justice and truth,

Julian Assange is the founder of wikileaks that leaks every politics and secrecy and hypocrisy in the world.

I wish authorized book will be revealed soon by him.

2011-2012 is goin to be the the step stone of my life, and i wish for greater good will be more surprising things for me.

Happy Chinese New Year for all of those who appreciate the culture of chinesse, for those who didn't well fuck you. u don't get the value of appreciative and the important things about family and relatives.

trust me i will be more mean towards people who doesn't give a head or hearts towards others.

anyways, i hope that i will have a good management towards myself, i wish to help others who in needs.

furthermore, i wanna put that this Lunar/Chinese new year is quite something since i have realized that i have lost contact to lots of mates back in the past. but what can i tell is that mates in my hometown are more trust worthy rather than in capital city though, i have come to realized that some of mates are just using and just wanna hang out with certain people who have a status and power which is coming down to Money!.

Well, its personal issue that i can't change, its became a personality for some of those people. but hey its fine as long as its nor harming people.

i once told in these blog about life, i have known some people who rather pray to other people rather to pray to GOD, cause by egging up to people and lick some boot at least u get a treat of meal. how pathetic was that thought.

i have to plan everything i could to make some fortune ahead this year.